Every time you try to put your finger on it, it slips away.
You turn on the lights and the cockroaches run away. You can never grasp them. I mean, I didn't exist anymore.
It would become like a paranoia, and then it would go away, because I'd be involved with the baby. And I realized there was a life without it - life after death. The freedom was great, but then I found out I wasn't free. I'd got boxed in The whole Beatle thing is just beyond comprehension Anybody who claims to have some interest in me as an individual artist or even as part of the Beatles has absolutely misunderstood everything I ever said if they can't see why I'm with Yoko.
And if they can't see that, they don't see anything. They're just jacking off to - it could be anybody.
Mick Jagger or somebody else. Let them go jack off to Mick Jagger, okay? I don't need it. So it was kind of a self-destructive suicide side of me, which is resolving itself for the better, I believe, because I never enjoyed it I was hip in kindergarten. I was different from the others. There was something wrong with me, I thought, because I seemed to see things people didn't see.
I always saw things in a hallucinatory way. And once you've learned - swim! You'd wake up in a concert and think, Wow, how did I get here?
But if we lose hope, what can you do? What is there to do? We were different people, we were older. We knew each other in all kinds of different ways than when we wrote together as teenagers and in our older twenties. The thing the sixties did was show us the possibilities and the responsibility that we all had. It wasn't the answer. It just gave us a glimpse of the possibility.
And people say, 'Do you think it's having any effect? It's like asking me in the Cavern, 'Are you gonna make it? And I think that peace is more tangible than Beatles. And the Beatles were in the crow's nest of that ship We were part of it and contributed what we contributed. I can't designate what we did and didn't do.
It depends on how each individual was impressed by the Beatles or how our shock wave went to different people.
We were going through the changes, and all we were saying was, it's raining up here, or there's land or there's a sun or we can see a seagull. We were just reporting what was happening to us. You know there's an old myth about people being half and the other half being in the sky, or in heaven or on the other side of the universe or a mirror image. But we are two halves, and together we're a whole. That sounds bigheaded, but every woman I met was either a dolly-chick, or a sort of screwed-up intellectual chick.
And of course, in the field I was in, I didn't meet many intellectual people anyway. I always had this dream of meeting an artist, an artist girl who would be like me. And I thought it was a myth, but then I met Yoko and that was it.
And he starts getting that way. So I can no longer afford to have artistic depressions. If I start wallowing in a depression, he'll start coming down with stuff, so I'm sort of obligated to keep up. And sometimes I can't, because something will make me depressed and sure as hell he'll get a cold or trap his finger in a door or something, and so now I have sort of more reason to stay healthy or bright We were against the cops and against the politicians and there was a lot of waving banners and all that.
And I think in a way, just as they were enjoying that machoism of war, we were enjoying the machismo of being anti-war, you know? So I thought, not this time, it's too complicated a situation. We cannot enjoy the machoism of fighting for peace.
I felt that I wanted John's fans to know that. You can stand for peace, but not fight for it. Probably we are all imagining the same thing in the end, but we have different ideas of how to get there. And so I was sort of vaguely looking for somewhere to go but didn't have the nerve to really step out into the boat myself, so I sort of hung around, and when I met Yoko and fell in love, my God, this is different than anything before.
This is more than a hit record. It's more than gold. It's more than everything When I met Yoko is when you meet your first woman, and you leave the guys at the bar, and you don't go play football anymore. Once I found the woman, the boys became of no interest whatsoever, other than they were like old school friends. Of varying degrees of intimacy, but basically assistants. And this one's going to take a pee. And you've got to sell it and sell it and sell it. So we do the bed-ins and they say, 'What? They're in bed?
What's this? We get tired and it's He didn't come out of my belly, but my God, I've made his bones, because I've attended to every meal, and how he sleeps, and the fact that he swims like a fish because I took him to the ocean. I'm so proud of all his things. But he is my biggest pride. I mean, we couldn't understand it. When you're in love, when somebody says something like, 'How can you be with that woman? I am with this goddess of love, the fulfilment of my whole life.
Why are you saying this? Why do you want to throw a rock at her or punish me for being in love with her? Everything we do is together, and that's what gives us our strength. I was in a pop bag, going round and round, in my own little clique. For many years, he tried to not wear glasses but his sight got increasingly worse and contact lenses were not an option. In later years, his eyesight was so bad he was declared legally blind. Considering the sheer power of the Beatles and what they had grown into, many business proceedings had to take place before the world could be told what was actually going on.
In the following years, some of the band members would collaborate, but never as a four.
A number of different factors culminated in a lot of animosity between the two who used to be as close as brothers. They disapproved of each others actions and embarked on different paths in life, despite having all of their highs together.